i see stars~~ @.@

phew~~
finally finished our IMC presentation..
one more presentation and individual assignment to go!!
GAMBATEH!!!!!!
alamak... my Final is right around da corner
GOSH!!!!
afterthat is internship
DOUBLE GOSH!!!!
i'm seriously not ready to go for internship yet T.T
needa look for company summore
aihzzzzz
fan fan fan
fan ah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
moreover this few days also dunno wat happen
keep on kena blame for no reason
damn sui
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
(*^^^%$%$$^$*
fan~

btw all i need now is a good rest
after few weeks of sleepless nights
i think i better go to bed now before i fainted
coz....
i see STARS on top of my head!!!
seriously~
*_*

ZZZzzzz

aihsss.. miss my sor lou tim
T.T
- c y N t h i A -

haiz
WTH WTH WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
all i can say is
I am extremely...

disappointed

v
v


Tired

v
v

tend to lose hope

v
v

give up

I'm trying to be strong
I'm trying to keep my faith
but in the end everything is going down hill
I'm really tired
Mentally and Physically exhausted
I surrender all to Thee
I have to lift up my spirits
Grant me the endurance to endure
for I know You won't disappoint me
- c y N t h i A -

Sor Lou

without my expectation..
this is my 100th post for this bloggie~ ^^
and of course the special post is for the special ones
i'm here to announce that...

I'm in LoVe with my Sor Lou

Mmmwaaahhhhh

My baby Sor Lou bought for me ^^

The Spaces between fingers were created
so that yours could fill them in
^^

I may not get to see you as often as I like.
I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night.
I may not be the perfect one that you expected.
But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love.
You occupies the space in my heart.
My mind is full of You.
I always wanted to spend more time with you.
Wanted to be at your side for every single seconds.
You might not feel it.
Sigh.. i do not know how 2 express my love.
Sorry if I doesn't love you the way you wanted me to.
Sorry if i've disappoint you.
No matter what, I REALLY DO LOVE YOU
and all I wanted to say is....
Sor Lou~ I LOVE YOU!!!!
*hugs and kisses*

Muackssssss
I miss U badly~ T.T

lots of love ,

- daRlinG a.k.a SoR Po -

Is there a Rainbow after the storm??

Where's my rainbow?
When will my storms end..
yes.. i may look like i have no troubles at all
but i've been suffering from all kinds of shit this few months
i have been keeping it all to myself
i got no one to talk to
even if i have it now
i wouldn't want to mention it again
sometimes i really wanna vomit everything out
but...
sigh~ juz forget it
some people even realize that i'm kinda quiet lately
some even ask y am i so emo? y am i so moody?
i also have no idea.. i juz dont feel like talking
sorry guys~

haiz damn fucking stresss aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i was thinking that i will feel better after i grab some fresh air outside
but for some reason i juz feel like crying again
my tears keep on rolling in my eyes
i was trying very hard to hold back my tears
i don wan my dad 2 worry
i will never cry infront of other people unless i cannot control it
but i still remember last year i failed to hold my tears and burst out crying infront of my dad
that time daddy was sending me back from college
and i was too stressed with my life, out of my control i burst out crying non stop until i suffer from breathing difficulties
can u imagine how stress i am that time
my dad was very worry and he was thinking wat on earth is wrong with me
but after crying i feel way alot better

i've been holding my tears while hunting for my stuff in Carrefour juz now
the only thing in my mind is that i wanna get back home lock myself in the room and cry
sigh~~
I have been crying alot recently
kinda sensitive
can even cry over a small things
dunno why i juz feel like crying~~
and i can cry randomly~

shucks.. tomorrow will be my CEP individual assignment's due date
and i still have no idea wat to do now
havent even started a single thing
it's already 12.43am
and i'm still blogging
WTD!!!!!
how i wish tomorrow will be the end of the day
then i no need 2 worry about this stupid assignment
gahhhhhhhh I think too much edy

when will my storms end??
I'm tired...
seriously very tired..
i tend to lose hope and faith..
in fact i dunno wat's my hope
my purpose of living
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
I really really really afraid that i'm gonna collapse
Wat will happen if i collapse one day?
is it the day i will commit suicide?
will i suffer from mental disorder?
nah.. i dont think i will commit suicide
but in fact i kinda worry that i will become crazy
as in i will turn into a lunatic
i am serious..

Dear Lord~
Pls give me the strength and courage to move on
I surrender all to Thee
Lead me and Guide me Lord~
Save me~~

Cynthia ah Cynthia~~
U gotta be strong!!!!!!!

- c y N t h i A -

LORD
Pls give me the courage to overcome it
Pls give me strength to carry on
U're the only one who know how i feel deeply inside
I really afraid that i will fall and collapse
T.T
Dear Lord
You are my Rock
You are my Refuge and Strength
I need YOU~
Lead me the way U wanted me to be~
the way that U have planned for me..
coz i know U'll have the BEST PLAN for me
^^
- c y N t h i A -

quiz of the day XD

Yo people~
guess wat i found in my cup ??







TADAA~~

left my cup on the table last nite
then i found this tiny little creature in my cup when i woke up
i was like WTH!!!
btw
when u take a closer look at it
it's kinda scary though
like a mini alligator~
XD
*click on the pic to enlarge it*

- c y N t h i A -

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
damn moody!!!!
feel like swearing
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

shit juz bought my portable speaker in PC fair last saturday
and i dunno where did i place it
have been looking for it for hours
but i still couldn't find it

F
A
R
K
!!!!!
*oopsss!! i sweared*
but in a "better" way
i think
>.<" - c y N t h i A -

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love is patient, Love is kind,
It does not envy, it does not boast,
It is not proud, It is not rude,
It is not self-seeking,
It is not easily angered,
It keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil,
but rejoices with the truth.

Love always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.

Love bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never ends.

L o v e N e v e r F a i l s.

1 Corinthians 13 : 4 - 8

Happy 1st Month Anniversary <3
I LuRv3 U~~~
huhu..
will update soon
^^
- c y N t h i A -

Stress, Helpless, Hopeless, Speechless

Apparently it has been a long time since i last post an update
So many things has happened for the past few months
dunno where should I start
Should I continue from where I stopped from the previous post
or should I write a new post on my recent life
that's one of the reason I've "abandon" my bloggie for quite sometime as I dunno where should I start

Actually I was in the mood today and I wish that I can actually come back early and update my bloggie
who knows something happened without my expectation
and that really hit me right to the ground =(
have been crying for hours~

I've been busying with my college stuff
I'm in my 4th Semester now!!
another stress and restless semester
damn alot of assignments
it's like we will get an assignment in every class which carries no marks and it's due on the next class
now we're having 2 weeks holidays
as we're moving to the new campus
how often can we get a holiday from IACT???
it aint a holiday anyway..
we've tons of assignments to do
have group meeting almost everyday
staying overnite at BK's house with maine tomorrow
juz to rush for the bloody assignment
Damn i still have no idea for my CEP individual assignment!!
i got stucked!!
and it's gonna due soon
stress stress stress!!!!
My department from Student council also got problem adoi!!!!!!!!!
grrrrr many things happened
college, family, social relationship
I feel like my life is damn f*cked up

I juz feel like going to a place where i can be alone
where nobody know who am I
or maybe hide myself just like tortoise hide themselves in their shell
too many things happened
too many obstacles to face
i somehow feel like all of my frens are far apart recently
all were busying with their life
who can i talk to?
how I wish I can shout and scream like nobody business now
NO.. it should be "How I wish I wasn't born"
LORD!! HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sry.. it was suppose to be a happy post
i wanted 2 share my joy with u guys
but... sigh
speechless
emo+ing
- c y N t h i A -

T.T

a fren of mine showed me a video juz now..
damn touching~
non stop crying when i 1st saw this video..
i know i'm very emo
and i still listening to it now T.T
i'm in love with this song~
all my hair still standing man..
sigh damn sad larh~

一位１７岁少女的刻骨铭心的爱情创作。
没有人知道这个女孩的名字，但是大家能确认的是这个女孩已经死了。
对于这首歌有很多种说法，
有人说是当时这个女生得了癌症，这首歌是要给她男朋友做纪念。
也有人说是这首歌是讲述那女孩子被男友抛弃，在自杀前写的一首歌。 
还有的是她和她的男友很相爱，可是不幸的是，她的男友生了重病，然后那个女的便写了这首歌给他，过后写了之后，男了去世了，女的也跟着自杀。


在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

先走了 去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮
所有回忆 抹去 却并不容易
生死由天决定 不要太伤心
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃

心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我 永远 爱你。

lots of things to say but i'm damn sleepy now..
took a flu medicine that's y felt a lil dizzy rite now..
haven't pack my clothes for 2mr's genting trip tim..
will continue on this post when i come back from genting ^^

aihz.. really feel damn sad after listening to this song
really don feel like goin to bed
juz wanna listen to this song again and again~
*sob sob*



- c y N t h i A -

was very sleepy and i force myself to bed again juz now
lying down on the bed but the pain really irritates me T.T
so i couldn't sleep
when i finally managed to lead my way to my dreamland
*lightning struck*
*daddy's hp rang*
i was like WTH!!!
grrr... really feel like banging my head on the wall weyh~
and he talked damn loud summore
i think our neighbour also can hear his voice *swt*
seriously.. LOL

now i'm having trouble on eating..
damn hungry but there's nth that i can eat now~
my grandma cooked curry chicken ~.~ *drooling*
but i cant take solid food larh
i'm having difficulties in swallowing lerh..
for some reason my throat is more painful now T.T
really suffering larhh!!!!!



- c y N t h i A -

A day of PAIN!!

wondering why am I blogging @ this hour?
I'm here to announce that i'm a dumb for today~
yes u're rite a DUMB!!!
or maybe u can call me a mute
i have a very very BAD sore throat and i couldn't talk at all!!!!
i had a slight sore throat few days ago but everything was fine..
can eat, talk, sing, shout, scream..
and now~ even i wanna swallow a single drop of saliva also feels like it's killing me..
then how am i going to drink water??! seriously can die lorh~

it's damn freaking PAINFUL!!!!
i've never experience such pain in my throat before!!!!
and i drank alot of water this few days and i mean alot!!
i keep on refill my water bottle
cz usually i don drink much at home..
woke up at 5am juz now..
then i felt the pain in my throat alry
so i straight away go 2 the kitchen n get a cup of honey
and gargle with a cup of salt water
mana tau i woke up at 7am i felt even worse
coz i drank honey and the phlegm stuck in my throat
it takes damn long for me 2 spit the phlegm out
and now i'm sitting infront of my lappy blogging @.@
i dunno wat should i do man~
wanna sleep also cant sleep bcoz of the pain, wake up lagi pain
wanna study also got distracted by the pain
all i can say is pain pain and PAIN!!!


ahhhh damn pain aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i seriously feel like shouting man!!!!

really cannot stand the pain!!
everytime i swallow my saliva also damn freaking pain
i really feel like digging my throat out aaaaaaaa
damn suffering lorh!!!
gosh this really ruin my day man!!
*pissed*

- c y N t h i A -

grr... not feeling well
i think there's a world war 3 in my tummy
within 2 hours i visited the toilet 4 times alry
i juz had a cup of water + bread + yakult for brunch
what is wrong with my stomach ehh?
how come i got diarrhea so easily??



- c y N t h i A -

IACT Street Party

Went to IACT Street Party @ Jaya One yesterday
Our seniors are having some HIV awareness campaign over there
and since Janette is performing
we juz go there and show our support
^^
Alice have 2 go back early for dinner
then i juz tumpang her car and went to maine's house
in a way it's nearer for my dad to fetch me back from there

oh yea.. before we leave Jaya One
Potato a.k.a Maine won the 1st place for the FreeStyle Raping competition
XD
She can RAP yo~



planned to watch movie in Sunway Pyramid
but we have no transport to go there
so we cancelled and headed to NgauCheSui for a drink




Potato & Totapo
^^

buzz lightyear

Minnie Mouse

Minnie & I
^^

- c y N t h i A -

Randomness~

WonderMilk
Cupcakes for Mei Teng's Birthday

Sherman with 2 antenna
XD

cute isn't it?

my brother~
XD

-.-

Consumer Behavior
Pasar Malam
assignment

- c y N t h i A -

Chup! 1.2.3 - Re-launching of IACT's Student Council

14 April 2009
CHUP 1.2.3!
it was the launch of Student Council which have a theme of "Cultural Day"
that's the reason why we are dressed in traditional clothes ^^
hrmmm... all i can say about this new SC is that there's a lot of meetings and paper work >.<" as in whatever we wanna do we must hand in a proposal and wait for approval hahaha honestly, i prefer the old SC.. where all of us come for meeting together, and we can decide anything on the spot... i feel like we're so separated now
coz we're divided into 3 departments which are the "Sport & Games", "Publication" & "Community"
haha k la..
I shall stop crapping and show u guys the pic of the day

Cultural Dance
choreograph by Ms Sue

Me giving speech

>.<"

Shwu Meei giving speech

Chloe Giving her speech ^^

Joyce Chin
our V10 member
^^

Ms May
our head advisor

Clement
the Emcee of the day

Mr Lee
our principal



cheng cheng cheng cheng~
Unveiling of our department's logo

Group Pic
^^

erm.. i know our logo looks like "something" la..
this is juz our temporarily logo for the SC lauch
we will redesign it

my lovely wives~

my darling shy~

pick-up-sticks

Congkak

Batu Seremban
Ms Su vs Vinz
huhu~

Su
my cousin
^^

Timang

Wayang Kulit by INK!

the chronicles of Ah Beng~

Lizzie & I
*hugs*
^^

Farah

Ms Su
our advisor
^^

bought this tiny lil thing
*which i myself also dunno what on earth is this*
from the orang asli stall

- c y N t h i A -