tired~

I seriously hate this feeling
The feeling where everything around you doesn't turn out right
The feeling where you really hate the situation that you are in right now
I do agree that sometimes things dont go our way
but this time is almost everything dont go on my way
yes.. maybe my problem is not a problem of life and death
but it really matters to me alot!!


Lots of problem bothering me this few months
I've always tell myself to Hold on!! things will get better the next minute
console myself like a small kid
trying to be optimistic
unfortunately... a new problem arises before the old one is solved
eventually it accumulates more and more
till the extend that I can cry over a small matter
I'm much more sensitive now..
I somehow will blame myself for things that goes wrong


To be honest,

I'm tired...

I'm mentally & physically tired

All i wanna do is to hide..

I wanna escape!!

- c y N t h i A -

yes I'm noob

I'm stupid

I'm useless

I'm a complete looser


I suckxxx!!!

=(


- c y N t h i A -

i hate this mixed feeling

what should i do?

i dont know!!!

all i wanna do is to scream, shout and cry!!!!!!!!!

i wanna hide!!!

to a place where nobody can go~

- c y N t h i A -

I want Fujifilm Instax Mini 7s !!

I've always wanted a lomography camera
it's an analogue camera which uses those film like we used to in the past =)
I love the colours and the contrast that the camera can produce
it brings out the dreamy, vintage sorta picture
which i think is damn cool
it's so fun~
u can view those pictures Here


just now i've browse through a few websites and i found this Fujifilm Instax Mini 7 Polaroid Instant Camera!!
i've been googling this cutie for the whole day!!
nom nom nom... i want~~ ❤

"The new Fujiflim's Instax Mini 7S offer true-to-life colors and quality prints on a par with 46(W) x 62(H)mm prints.
Lightweight and compact, the stylish Instax Mini & goes anywhere. Operation is easy ~ simply check the LED exposure indicator and press the shutter. A beautiful credit card-size instant color photo is ready in minutes which is "Sharp and Clear"!
New Instax Mini 7S has 4 exposures adjustment mode "Dark","Cloudy","Clear","Fine".
Auto-off feature after 5 minutes of non-use."


my brother said he wants to buy a polaroid camera
but it's different from this tho..
i seriously fall in love with this sweetie
aww.. me likey~!!! ❤❤❤
but 1st of all i needa save money for this
coz my mom took my savings from my bank acc and lend it to my uncle T.T
can't wait to go for my internship and get those allowance
and bring u back home

wait for me~

❤

- c y N t h i A -

Shit!!
i said the wrong things again

='(

i feel damn bad now..

I shall shut my mouth

=X

haiz

really feel like slapping myself now!!!

WTF

- c y N t h i A -

=)

celebrate mid-autumn festival @ vern's place with a bunch of college mate last friday
brought my mickey mouse lantern but i left it in my dad's car
then when i get into Vern's car See Kei & Vern say those who didn't bring lantern have 2 be punished
so i go and buy a dinosaur glass paper lantern which i used to play when i was young XD
cant really remember when was the last time i played lantern
it was way looooong time ago..
had some girls talk with Sand, maine and alice that night
but it's just a short one..
all of us are going for internship, i'm gonna miss them all =(
later on sor lou came and picked me up
it was around 1 something almost 2 *i think*
i know he's very tired..
but he insists to send me back home that nite~
Thanks Sor Lou~~~

❤

 

 

had dinner with my parents and sor lou on Saturday
it was Sor Lou's 1st dinner with my parents
after dinner, we went for a ride around his housing area

then later on i got a call from shi wei
they ask us out for a drink at Old Town
afterthat we headed to Bukit Permai a.k.a Little Genting
it's my 1st time there, always heard of people talking abt that place
but i never been there before
and i finally got the chance to go there =)
the air was cooling but not as cold and misty as Genting
but we can still view the night scenery of  the entire KL.. quite nice tho
but it reminds me of Look Out Point
kinda long didn't go there already..
oh ya, we bought 7 boxes of candles and we played candles ^^
it really bring back the memories of my childhood..
then we went back around 1 something
overnight at sor lou's place =)

woke up around 2pm ytd
had our brunch at Old Town a.k.a my sor lou's 2nd home XD
then headed off to Port Dickson with my sor lou
i was so excited as it was our 1st time going outstation like this =D
he was singing all the way to PD
kaka that's my boy~ ❤
by the time we arrived PD it's alry 6pm
lolx.. we were kinda lost when we 1st arrived coz we took the back way and we couldn't find the beach
so we seek for direction
finally arrived  to our destination
we sat by the shore and watched the sun set

our footprints

^^

brought the leftover candles along
but it was so windy that we find it difficult to lit them up
even took a long time to light up the fire

 

our

❤

really had a great time with my baby sor lou =)

appreciate it alot!!

how i wish i could spend more time with him~
coz both of us gonna be very busy for the next few months
=(

sigh this few weeks i've been very moody and down
but i'm happie now~
=D

Sor Lou ahh Sor Lou~

Thx for everything~

mwahxxxx

i miss euuu

❤

- c y N t h i A -

Sigh

Couldn't sleep again T.T
 

going for my second interview tomorrow
i was browsing thru the company's website
&
"googled" some interview tips
the whole day
did some preparation..
coz i wasn't prepared for d 1st interview and i sort-of screwed that interview

hope everything goes well 2mr~

=)

shit..

that feeling is coming back
feel damn moody now

=(

(*&^)";%#@^&*

Lord,

Plz grant me the wisdom and strength each day,

May You continuously pour Your Blessing to our family and everyone around me.

Amen

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