i see stars~~ @.@

phew~~
finally finished our IMC presentation..
one more presentation and individual assignment to go!!
GAMBATEH!!!!!!
alamak... my Final is right around da corner
GOSH!!!!
afterthat is internship
DOUBLE GOSH!!!!
i'm seriously not ready to go for internship yet T.T
needa look for company summore
aihzzzzz
fan fan fan
fan ah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
moreover this few days also dunno wat happen
keep on kena blame for no reason
damn sui
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
(*^^^%$%$$^$*
fan~

btw all i need now is a good rest
after few weeks of sleepless nights
i think i better go to bed now before i fainted
coz....
i see STARS on top of my head!!!
seriously~
*_*

ZZZzzzz

aihsss.. miss my sor lou tim
T.T
- c y N t h i A -

haiz
WTH WTH WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
all i can say is
I am extremely...

disappointed

v
v


Tired

v
v

tend to lose hope

v
v

give up

I'm trying to be strong
I'm trying to keep my faith
but in the end everything is going down hill
I'm really tired
Mentally and Physically exhausted
I surrender all to Thee
I have to lift up my spirits
Grant me the endurance to endure
for I know You won't disappoint me
- c y N t h i A -

Sor Lou

without my expectation..
this is my 100th post for this bloggie~ ^^
and of course the special post is for the special ones
i'm here to announce that...

I'm in LoVe with my Sor Lou

Mmmwaaahhhhh

My baby Sor Lou bought for me ^^

The Spaces between fingers were created
so that yours could fill them in
^^

I may not get to see you as often as I like.
I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night.
I may not be the perfect one that you expected.
But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love.
You occupies the space in my heart.
My mind is full of You.
I always wanted to spend more time with you.
Wanted to be at your side for every single seconds.
You might not feel it.
Sigh.. i do not know how 2 express my love.
Sorry if I doesn't love you the way you wanted me to.
Sorry if i've disappoint you.
No matter what, I REALLY DO LOVE YOU
and all I wanted to say is....
Sor Lou~ I LOVE YOU!!!!
*hugs and kisses*

Muackssssss
I miss U badly~ T.T

lots of love ,

- daRlinG a.k.a SoR Po -

Is there a Rainbow after the storm??

Where's my rainbow?
When will my storms end..
yes.. i may look like i have no troubles at all
but i've been suffering from all kinds of shit this few months
i have been keeping it all to myself
i got no one to talk to
even if i have it now
i wouldn't want to mention it again
sometimes i really wanna vomit everything out
but...
sigh~ juz forget it
some people even realize that i'm kinda quiet lately
some even ask y am i so emo? y am i so moody?
i also have no idea.. i juz dont feel like talking
sorry guys~

haiz damn fucking stresss aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i was thinking that i will feel better after i grab some fresh air outside
but for some reason i juz feel like crying again
my tears keep on rolling in my eyes
i was trying very hard to hold back my tears
i don wan my dad 2 worry
i will never cry infront of other people unless i cannot control it
but i still remember last year i failed to hold my tears and burst out crying infront of my dad
that time daddy was sending me back from college
and i was too stressed with my life, out of my control i burst out crying non stop until i suffer from breathing difficulties
can u imagine how stress i am that time
my dad was very worry and he was thinking wat on earth is wrong with me
but after crying i feel way alot better

i've been holding my tears while hunting for my stuff in Carrefour juz now
the only thing in my mind is that i wanna get back home lock myself in the room and cry
sigh~~
I have been crying alot recently
kinda sensitive
can even cry over a small things
dunno why i juz feel like crying~~
and i can cry randomly~

shucks.. tomorrow will be my CEP individual assignment's due date
and i still have no idea wat to do now
havent even started a single thing
it's already 12.43am
and i'm still blogging
WTD!!!!!
how i wish tomorrow will be the end of the day
then i no need 2 worry about this stupid assignment
gahhhhhhhh I think too much edy

when will my storms end??
I'm tired...
seriously very tired..
i tend to lose hope and faith..
in fact i dunno wat's my hope
my purpose of living
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
I really really really afraid that i'm gonna collapse
Wat will happen if i collapse one day?
is it the day i will commit suicide?
will i suffer from mental disorder?
nah.. i dont think i will commit suicide
but in fact i kinda worry that i will become crazy
as in i will turn into a lunatic
i am serious..

Dear Lord~
Pls give me the strength and courage to move on
I surrender all to Thee
Lead me and Guide me Lord~
Save me~~

Cynthia ah Cynthia~~
U gotta be strong!!!!!!!

- c y N t h i A -

LORD
Pls give me the courage to overcome it
Pls give me strength to carry on
U're the only one who know how i feel deeply inside
I really afraid that i will fall and collapse
T.T
Dear Lord
You are my Rock
You are my Refuge and Strength
I need YOU~
Lead me the way U wanted me to be~
the way that U have planned for me..
coz i know U'll have the BEST PLAN for me
^^
- c y N t h i A -

quiz of the day XD

Yo people~
guess wat i found in my cup ??







TADAA~~

left my cup on the table last nite
then i found this tiny little creature in my cup when i woke up
i was like WTH!!!
btw
when u take a closer look at it
it's kinda scary though
like a mini alligator~
XD
*click on the pic to enlarge it*

- c y N t h i A -

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
damn moody!!!!
feel like swearing
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

shit juz bought my portable speaker in PC fair last saturday
and i dunno where did i place it
have been looking for it for hours
but i still couldn't find it

F
A
R
K
!!!!!
*oopsss!! i sweared*
but in a "better" way
i think
>.<" - c y N t h i A -